“Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion.” –Steel Magnolias
Some moments my healing comes through tears and others through my laughter. Some moments my healing comes through cursing. Healing is hardly ever pretty. Healing is messy and often unpredictable. But healing is also divine. And in its own way, a precious miracle. Heavenly Healing provides restoration and a renewal of the heart, a lifting of the soul. Heavenly healing is a gift through the grace of God and a fruit of the Atonement of Christ. I cannot tell you how long your healing will take or what it will look like. What I can tell you is that it can happen. Healing happens. Healing is real because Christ is real. Because He lives. And not only does He live but He loves. The love of Christ is big. It is perfect and perfecting. Christ’s love offers restoration, redemption and renewal to the wounded soul.
I am a believer and a practicer of giving myself permission. From giving myself permission to fail and fail big to permission to succeed. I have given myself permission to stay in bed all day when I have needed it. On other days when staying in bed is what I wanted but far from what I needed I gave myself permission to get moving and hate it. Haha. The key is to only give myself permission to do or think things that are in-line with my truth. For example, eating cake for dinner is in-line with my truth but eating cake every day is not. Standing up for myself: In-line with my truth. Name calling: Never. See how this goes? The picture above is my most current permission slip. The one below was made in January.
And here are some random pictures of my younger sister and I just because. These were taken in May??? I think
Music is powerful. It has the power to bring me low or bring me high. It can validate the way I am feeling when I am feeling like no one understands. It touches the soul. It makes me sing. It tells the truth and very often- it tells my truth. Listening to Demi has been healing for me in my recovery. One song that describes how I feel about My Buffalo Guy is “In Case.” One that describes how I am trying to feel about myself is “Warrior.”
This morning I saw this Clean and Clear add featuring Demi. I loved it. I loved how she talked about being a real person who doesn’t always have it together. I am not famous but I know what she is talking about and I am sure you do too. Sometimes I feel like others view me as having it all together. Whether that is true or not, I feel the pressure of that way of thinking. I also loved how Demi talked about therapy. I go to therapy every week. Therapy is hard work. Really. Hard. Work. But worth it. It has made a difference in my life. It has saved my life. Read more about my therapy experience HERE.
So thank you Demi. Thank you for being brave. For being honest. In word and song. You sharing your truth has helped make me feel more the warrior I am. Your music has played on repeat many of times as I have broken down and cried in the shower. They have played so loud in my car , drowning out my own voice as I sang along. They have pushed my feet to move one step after another on my daily runs. Your music has not only validated but made me strong. Thank you.